New mommy woes

I always thought breastfeeding was easy baby sees breast baby latches on and vuallaaa!! milk oh precious milk gushes forth from the lady mountains.Not so fast latching on apparently doesnt come so easy to some babies and the art of helping baby latch on doesnt come as easy to a mom who just went through the most grueling 72 hours of her life....wait scratch that 10 months whoever said pregnancy is 9 months needs a dose of reality,its not,neither is it a bed of roses.We are a close knit family and i always just saw my aunties pregnant and lo and behold  before i know it baby is here.When i got pregnant it was unexpected but my wonderful boyfriend (hubby now) at the time was very supportive,it was not easy from the beginning .I was constantly on the bathroom floor with my head buried deep in the toilet bowl,yes i appropriated the bathroom and every one had to schedule use around my toilet bowl time,which was well all the time.So at 12 weeks i was ordered on bedrest and IV infusion for hyperemesis gravidarum that say me loose 30 pounds in one month (i wish i could lose that type of weight now..if wishes were horses this plump lady would ride)
Pregnancy was a blur of hospitals doctors and my old friend the toilet bowl.
This was all to end when i gave birth or so i thought,it was all going to be easy merry and dandy....not a chance first thing am told your baby has a heart murmur and may need surgery,second blow i could not produce milk fenugreek blessed thistle lactating tees nothing,i got engorged bought an unheavenly expensive pump zilch nada nothing cept a drop or two...guess its formula then..we must have went through 4 types of formula on ennfamil and similac to finally end up with something that didnt keep us all up because he had gas.
talk about disillusion.He is gaining weight just fine i told myself but i couldnt help but feel inadequate why i could not feed him my own milk.
Fastfoward 3 months later now am told oh there was a type of drug your doctor of lactation consultant should have told you about.Reglan or domepridone,well reglan has too many side effects so i chose domperidone which i had to order from Canada.
2 days into taking it i have started getting drops of milk again and that is on the low dose,cant wait for next week when i amp it up.Will i be finally able to burst forth nourishment aaah lets wait and see.
Cant help but wonder why the FDA is making domperidone such a big issue,this is just another case of heavy handed bureaucracy aimed at controlling instead of protecting the general pulic.Domperidone goes by the brand name motillium manufactured as dopamine inhibitor which in turn raises your prolactin levels.It has been approved for long term use on patients with gastrointestinal problems eg gastroperesis.Reglan which also does the same raise your prolactin levels is known to cause depression and serious side effects such as tardive dyskenisis yet that is approved.Someone help me understand this madness.Well it is not too late my little one may need surgery soon decision to be made this Tuesday,i am besides myself with worry despite reassurance that it has been done many times before i cant help but feel ill at the thought of a masked man cutting open my little angel.Sanity please don't leave me.